Found the way

So. I have decided.
I had the choice: either to enforce my own will, and hereby letting someone sitting alone,
or to forget about my will and to give in to somebody else, where again I would hurt someone.
I have decided for the 2nd option. Even though Bee was friendly to me and looked at me, I let her go.
Oh god, how disgusted I am about myself, about what I am writing here!
This materialism!
Well, I went for a walk with C.
She likes me, I know.
and Bee? I do not know.
Those women!
Always they have to whisper with each other, also about me, they talk about their problems, about such problems which I only entrust to this diary here.
That is sometimes upsetting.
Strange, I have found my way.
Will I be happy?