Courage - and Disappointment

Today I was at her home.
Of course I did not do what I had wanted to do, I just was in a normal conversation with her.
But at least I was there.
Of course, before I could go to her, C tried everything possible, to prevent me from going.
I of course was too weak to resist, to tell her clearly what is going on.
I will probably never be able to do that.
But despite that I drove to Bee.

Then later, in the town...
I saw her standing with that guy Wolfgang...!
"Oh, you again" she said to me.

If that does not drive anyone to suicide...
But I still am alive.

Left by everyone (except by C) I move on, maybe she will accompany me.
If she too is not soon sick of me.