Back to Reality

A few hours ago, everything looked different, as described in the last entry.
At least for half a day I had the wonderful illusion.
And the reconciliation which I had hoped for, had indeed happened.

Nothing is clear to me now.
A few hours ago I was deliberating how I should say to C good-bye, and now I only sit here and am silent.
Again fooled myself.
I will ask Bee what she is thinking about this.
Her guy, or me.
I was so happy this afternoon, and she seemingly too.
What have I done wrong?
The last words of her were so friendly and coming from heart!
What happened in the meantime?